When we announced to the world that #BabyLarison was going to be a thing, a good 90% of you told me”the time will fly by.” Well, you were right.
Even though this pregnancy has flown by, I’ve still been able to slow down and come to the realization that I’m going to responsible for a human being other than myself and my wife. One of my favorite bloggers, Shay Carl, recently had his 5th kid! He said this when asked what it’s like to have a kid, “The most amazing part is when the baby is born, there is all the sudden another person in the room without the door even opening. It’s amazing.”
I’m so excited for that moment.
When prepping for this kid, so many questions have been rushing through my head. What music am I going to let her listen to? What TV shows should she be allowed to watch? Should I tell her what to wear? SO MANY QUESTIONS. Every time I get these questions in my head all I can think of is how amazing my parents were through my childhood. You never realize how big a deal parenting is until you’re staring it right in the face, and I’m so close I could smell its breath.
Erin and I have both been blessed with some amazing parents. Our parents may be weird sometimes and say things that might be embarrassing, but they never stopped loving us and I’m starting to see that is all that really matters. I remember times where I wasn’t allowed to watch certain movies that my friends were able to. Probably my biggest “fits” were over stupid stuff like that. Well, I will publicly admit that I really appreciate those decisions now. So, thanks, Mom.
I love this kid so much already that it doesn’t make sense. I’m going to have a daughter. She’s going to be awesome. And you know what? So am I. I might not make 100% of the right decisions 100% of the time, but I’m going to be awesome because I will always love this kid with everything I have, and from what I’ve seen, that is all that matters.
In two weeks I find out if I’m going to be the father of a little boy or little girl. Erin, my wife, is 100% positive that it is a boy. Me, always being the devil’s advocate, is 100% positive it is a girl. I feel like I have to say this, but I just want a healthy kid that will love me and start sleeping through the night ASAP.
Finding out the gender of our baby is just another step in the direction of realization that this is really going to happen. I’M GOING TO BE A DAD. Well, technically I already am a dad, but you know what I mean.
We also started crossing out items from the ridiculously long checklist of things that it takes to keep your child alive. Crib bumpers, baby mittens, onesies (those actually seem awesome and I’m jealous they don’t come in my size), all of these things are way over my head. Luckily, I have Erin. She has been awesome. In between her 4 naps a day, she is all over online reviews and testimonials from friends that she knows more about the products in Baby’s R Us then the store manager. She is amazing, and I’m so lucky I have her.
I’m getting more and excited and less scared. A friend of Erin’s bought our kid a Michigan Onesie. It’s adorable. Things like that are starting to become more common and less confusing. A year ago I wouldn’t look at the baby aisle at Target, now it would be weird to go to Target without strolling through the diapers and wipes aisle.
I will try to keep all of you updated on what we’re up to. Thanks for the great response on the last post. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate all the support.
I have a life motto. A smart man named Henry David Thoreau once said, “Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.” A lot of people will read this quote and take away the idea that you can do anything you set your mind to, but when I first read this quote the word “confidently” is what stood out to me the most. I am a firm believer that nothing good can be done if it is not done in confidence.
As most of you know now, I’m going to be a Father in 5 months. To describe how I’m feeling about this I would have to use the words, excited, nervous, and terrified. Please notice that I didn’t use the word confident. This is one of few big moments in my life where I’m going into it without confidence. I’m scared. In a few short months I’m going to be responsible for a human life other than my own, and I could not be more lost.
I’ve been talking to quite a few dads, and I have come to realize that this is very normal. Most dads have told me that they still have no idea what they’re doing. This helps…a little bit. I’m still terrified. I’m beginning to wonder if I’m more scared about not being confident in the situation, than actually being a dad.
So, in the upcoming months as we prepare for this little human, I’m going to need so much encouragement from all of you. Erin and I have been blown away by the amount of support you all have given so far. All I can say is…keep it coming. We need every bit of it. Well, at least I do.